The question of calling has always been a difficult one for me. I have often struggled with the desire for a specific mission in life – a primary focus that would unite the various aspects of life. But I don’t feel that I have that clear calling. At times, I assume that it must be my own fault, that I don’t have the proper relationship with God and am not seeking to hear Him fervently. At other times, I assume that different people need different things, and God hasn’t seen fit to provide me with that focused mission that others seem to have. There is probably truth in both.

 

It was somewhat ironic to me a few weeks ago when Fr. Alex mentioned me in his sermon on calling. Among the list of people who have a clear calling – such as David to leading music and Mary to intercessory prayer – he included me, listing several places of service. (I would contend that my actual service is less impressive than he would have my “resume” sound, but I digress.) The irony to me was that I don’t feel like a very good example of calling. Some might say I have the spiritual gift of helps, which I would describe as “doing the job that’s needed.” I don’t know whether this can or should be considered a calling. It certainly does not meet my traditional definition.

 

So what do I do with that? I serve where I can. I work with several people to lead a community group that gathers monthly to strengthen relationships and serve together. This last fall, I had the opportunity to lead a financial class with Adrienne. I play music on Sunday with the music team. And other odds and ends such as organizing the AV team.

 

What do all of these things have in common? Nothing, as far as I know, except that they are opportunities to serve. I continue to wrestle with the question of calling. I continue to pray for clarity and direction. And I continue to serve.

 

Perhaps this is a question with which you also wrestle. I would encourage you to step out and do something. Be intentional, seek the Lord’s direction, but then go. Don’t let your uncertainty keep you from the opportunities that God has placed in front of you.

 

 

Jose Boada